BRICKED WALLS and FRUSTRATIONS

Well.... My sweet friends have been writing me asking what's going on with the weight loss! Kellye Franks wrote to me and said, "Your blog called and she misses you....!" ha ha ha! That was cute!

So.... I have hit the BRICKED WALL everyone talks about and let me tell you... IT IS SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am actually feeling a little angry!

I lost the first 20 pounds and then THINGS SLOWED DOWN! This morning I weighed and I am actually 203.5, which means I am a pounds and a half heavier than I was the last time I wrote! I am no longer 20 pounds down. I am 18.5!!!! YIKES! I know people will say, "Just hang in there... that could be water weight..." yada yada yada.... but THIS STINKS!

The ONE GOOD THING I CAN SAY IS THIS.... I have gone from a size 20 to a size 16!!!! I am still wearing some of my size 18 pants, but they are baggy. I wore some to work yesterday and my coworkers all said they were hanging off of my rear! I refuse to buy new clothes until I get a little more weight off. My jeans are so big that I can actually fold them down twice on my waist. This is a good thing... I know... but I still want to lose more and being the same weight for two weeks now is frustrating!

I need to change up my workouts. That is what some of my friends are telling me. I probably need to just pay up for training sessions. I just want to do things that I LIKE TO DO... being stuck in the gym is not so much fun for me.

Ben is doing GREAT. He is down 30 pounds... Once again... I love love love him, but he can drink PITCHERS of beer, make sure he gets in a good run... and he has NO PROBLEM!!!!

The running thing... as I said before I HATE IT! I still do. It is getting a little easier, I will say that, but it is still not my favorite thing to do. Someone please tell me that I will eventually fall in love with running so I can be cool like my friends and run 5ks and 10ks and THE NY MARATHON WITH AMANDA CASSELL! yeah... RIGHT! Like THAT'S ever gonna happen! I think Amanda lost me last year when she completed the IRON MAN! WHOO HOO! I will cheer you on from the sideline, sista... NOT GOING TO SEE ME jumping into the Gulf of Mexico with a bunch of sharks and crazy athletes! ha ha ha! Amanda is MUCH stronger physically and mentally than I will ever strive to be! God bless her....

Now... I am going on vacation in the morning! I am going to Gatlinburg with Ben, his grandparents and his mom. On Friday, his mother and I are going to the Biltmore Estate and I will just let EVERYONE KNOW RIGHT NOW... I am going to enjoy that winery! YES... Brandi and some red wine will become one on Friday! If anyone has a suggestion on how to quickly lose the weight you may gain from a bottle of wine, please let me know. I am open to suggestions; however, if anyone tells me "DON'T DO IT".... I will cry like a little girl and question our friendship! ha ha ha....

So this is my update... I am not AS FAT as I was on January 10th... two months into this I am down 18.5 pounds... but I am STILL FAT! At this moment I do not feel that I am on a roll to lose these rolls, but that the rolls are on a roll to rule me! HELP!

I hope all is well! I WILL CONTINUE with this journey. I AM NOT giving up, but this is FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is hard and frustrating! I have not taken ONE SINGLE diet pill during this entire journey... THAT...I am MOST proud of because let me tell you... it would be so easy to just grab some of that stuff off of the shelf and move things along a little, but I wonder if I will KEEP IT off and have an ongoing healthy lifestyle in the end. I want to be thin and healthy and enjoy my life, not continue on a weight struggle rollercoaster.

I hope all is well with you all! I love you all and thank you so much for reading this and keeping me pumped up. I feel like I can't quit because people know I am doing this and ask me WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING... you haven't written in a while! This helps me OH SO MUCH! So Kellye Franks... the blog did call and HERE SHE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FIRST BIG MARK.... 20 POUNDS LOST!!!!!!!

YAY! It is Sunday and I just had my weigh in this morning. I have LOST 20 POUNDS!!!!!!! Do I get to eat cake now or what....? Uh.... NO!!!!!!!!! Oh my gosh... I can not believe how wonderful this feels. I am so excited!

I have been taking it easy this weekend. I did a SHORT workout yesterday and I will do some tonight, but I must say... this is really paying off! I feel so much better and look forward to reporting my progress later in the week too! I think it is time to step up the working out a little.

YAY! All I can say.... YIPPPEEEEEEEEEE!